Sinking

HOLIDAY PIECE on the CAMPNANO front. A little bit more depressing then the other. Holiday accidentally looses control of his hunger and hurts "Moon" and Song.

It’s easy to fall back into the hold habits. They’re all we ever know really know in the end. A girl with a sickness stops eating, because the food always makes her ill. She’ll feel better if she doesn’t eat. Just enough to sustain her life. A man who has been injured can’t handle the pain of it all, and he takes his pills until he can no longer feel anything at all. He’ll keep taking them even when the pain is gone, afraid it’ll come back again to haunt him.

I locked myself away in my room, and my heart away from the world. I had attacked someone, and I didn’t want to deal with the rest of the day. Call me what you would, a coward or a monster. It didn’t matter to me, I’d been called it all and by a lot of different people, but I couldn’t face Moon. I couldn’t have him look at me now and not see that terrified wide eyed look as I came back down from the high, the insanity, of the hunger.

Moon had kept an outright distance, and that had been easy enough to handle. Song had attempted to walk near me, to act like everything was okay but he flinched. I move my arm just a hair or look off to the side and he’d flinch and hold his arm and move to just a step closer to Ryzec.

Ryzec, who looked like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to check and see if I was okay, or shoot me right then and there for even laying a scratch on Song. Probably wanted to just blame me for the whole fiasco. That was fine, I didn’t care. I could just never care again. I’ll stay in this room, in this tiny little prison and I’d be okay. I knew how to hide myself away like the best of them, it wouldn't be the first time and it would never be the last.